and kept the old one.
Just worked a 7 day week, and got another one coming.
It's killing me though. I love Nando's but I don't think I can keep it up. It's breaking my heart to think of leaving Nando's. One of the core values there is Family, and it has been my Family for 2 years. I've seen everyone there every day, more often than my own Family, and you don't walk out on Family.
It's been my home for two years, through the thick and thin, good and the bad. Short staffed and too many staffed, managers coming and going, and I've been there throughout, sticking with it. Fighting away.
And now to think that I may have to leave there because I have taken another job, which is better pay and has opportunities and is in my field, I can build a career there. However I already have a career at Nando's. I have responsibility, I am respected and trusted. Part of me thinks I'm crazy to just throw that away.
I understand that, when you're a kid, you don't think "When I grow up, I want to work at Nando's, cooking chicken and work my way up to restaurant management", and I sort of lucked into this job as my sister in law already worked there and I knew all of the staff already, was already a part of the family.
However my ethos has always been to be the best I can be, no matter what I am doing, and it's tearing me apart inside that keeping the job that I love, the job that I'm familiar with, the job that I excel at and have so much of my life invested into, may not be an option. If I stay at Nando's and keep my new job, I won't be able to be the best I can be. I'll be too tired and resentful of both jobs and I'll just end up losing everything, or dying of exhaustion.
Realising that I'm not superman is extremely tough. Something has to give, and it's hard to come to the conclusion that I may have to give up my family and home of two years, to start anew and from the ground up with my new job.
That's what I'm going to have to do, though, I think.